Like a SEED sprouting from the dark of the earth, I’m slowly starting to see the light again.
It mandated a new kind of patience and trust to get through this latest phase of growth. It required getting friendly with the dark rather than resisting it. It demanded an unfailing attention, my impeccable presence.
(Avoidance, denial or fighting it just created more pain.)
I had to DIG DEEP. I honestly didn’t know if I had it in me and was flattened by a debilitating fear about how (and even IF) I’d get through… and who I was going to be on the other side of this passage.
Having come undone from the reality I was comfortable in, I had no reference for what could be.
As a seer and guide of expansion, a lesson from my dark night I impart to you:
It isn’t about getting over it, it’s about ACCEPTANCE.
In acceptance, I stopped giving life force to the battle. I ceased creating more suffering by engaging the belief that I should be anywhere other than where I was.
Acceptance is tricky. Misunderstood, it can lead to passivity, self-betrayal and going along with things that are just plain dysfunctional and bad for you.
But that is NOT what I’m talking about here.
I’m not saying that I lay down my values or dignity. I’m not using acceptance as a form of giving up on my health, my happiness and quality of life. I will always remain a stand for the best in all there is to have, be and do.
Please hear me on this one!
I’m not advocating that you just “go along” with any and everything in your life. There are people you need to say no to. There are boundaries to be set. There are standards to walk away from. There are morals to be upheld.
ACCEPTING WHAT IS is not an invitation to be a victim to whatever happens. It’s not about putting up with or tolerating ongoing choices and circumstances that keep you in mediocrity.
What it is… A spiritual call to greater peace and serenity. A salve for the hurt parts that need to be loved up. A cure to stop the insanity and create enduring freedom.
Carl Rogers said, “The curious paradox is that when I accept myself just as I am, then I can change.”
Many times, the motive for change stems from the impulse to get away from the feelings that ultimately we are meant to learn and grow through. We resist being where we are. That’s avoidance. And then we DISGUISE our drive for change in a cloak of positivity.
As I was going through my dark night, I knew that I didn’t want to live like that.
Yet, there was a wisdom in me that knew that the only way out was THROUGH.
I was meant to feel it all. ALL of it… the good, the bad and the ugly.
I was meant to retrieve the parts of me that I had denied for years that were hurting for attention.I was meant to become a more compassionate person by being stretched to new dimensions. I was meant to share the transmission of consciousness I could only communicate by being willing to BE with what was arising.
I AFFIRM: I am free through acceptance.
