Kendra E Thornbury

Good bye 2016.

I will RISE from your ashes!

Not just because I’m fierce.
Not just because I’m tenacious.
Not just because I’m devoted.

But because I faced you.

I’m saying good bye with certainty that I am finished because I did the work.

I DID the f*^^ing work!!!

I am not running.
I am not resisting.
I am not rejecting.

I am not kidding myself that the change of date will save me.

I am simply complete.

I got what you showed me.
The terror. The shadow.
The meanness. The dark.

I got it.

In the contrast, greater desire was birthed.
In the contrast, my values were fortified.
In the contrast, my tolerations became intolerable.

I am stronger.
I am kinder.
I am clearer.

I know my value.
I know my worth.
I know my power.

Thank you for being the foundation from which I will rebuild. A truer me. A freer me. A humbler me.

AND SO IT IS!!!!

“What’s WRONG?”
“What happened to you?”
“Why was 2016 so horrible?”

While I appreciate your concern about my proclamation that 2016 was the hardest f**kn’ year of my adult life, I want to be clear….

I am NOT a victim.
NOTHING is wrong.
Life didn’t DO anything to me.

I am a believer that:

* Life is FOR me. (Not that it happens TO me.)
* I am 100% responsible for my reality. (So no pity-parties.)
* Business (and life) led through a spiritual lens brings illumination and meaning far beyond what appearances may be.

What does that mean?

I want to open up with you about my dark night. I’m ready to start talking about it at the next level.

More on that in a minute….

Because, while there are many sucky things about 2016, there is MUCH potential bursting to express.

I know you want 2017 to sizzle and shine with the BEST that life has to offer…

… and to do that, you need to ensure that you have honored what 2016 meant to you.

In “YOUR BEST YEAR YET“, I offer a framework for this to  happen for you…

An END OF THE YEAR INVENTORY.

Why bother?

Well, here’s one of the biggest reasons.

*** A lesson will repeat itself until it’s taught  you what you need to know. ***

Despite what some say, the Universe is not here to test you –or even torture you.

It IS here to support your growth.

You know how you find yourself repeating stories, patterns and experiences that you thought you gotten over or should be beyond?

I mean, you’re so evolved, right?

You’ve done the therapy.
And the spiritual work.
And the energy healing.
And the… list. Goes. On.

Heck, you TEACH this stuff.

I get it.

I’ve been there.

IN fact, let’s get back to my challenges this year.

I was blasted with lessons that I thought I have surpassed.
Silly me.

I mean, here I was with a highly successful business.

I’ve built the dream lifestyle. Multi-6 figures.

I work with phenomenal clients.

I lead retreats in beautiful places like Kauai.

I really KNOW that I live a life that only a few percent of people are living on this planet!

I do NOT take that for granted. I am humbly grateful.

So here I am streaming along with this goodness as I entered 2016.

I was in Sedona with a private client leading a VIP day in January.

… and BAM! I was thrust into the heart of what I first thought was a cleanse.

I thought, “It’s Sedona! I’m just cleansing.”

I was nauseated and couldn’t eat.
My muscles kept shaking uncontrollably.
My heart was palpating fast.

And worst of all.

I was scared. Constantly.

Like not your usual fear. Like I thought I was going to die fear.

(Later I discovered from my Dr that something was triggered in nervous system and I was overcome by the chemistry of the  fight, fright or flight response.)

Hours turned into days.
Days turned into weeks.
Weeks turned into months.

Eh-hem.

WTF???!!

Get me out of this hell!

And HOW did I get here?

I’m not exaggerating. I dipped into a dimension of fear that was all-consuming.

Part of what was so hard about it is that I couldn’t put my finger on anything specific.

Not only that, my usual tools were NOT sufficient to make this go away.

I knew on some level that I was in a dark night, and that my arrival into a deeper acceptance was the only resolution to it.

Because the paradox of change is that when we accept things as they are, then change can occur.

Change can’t truly happen without coming to terms with what is. Otherwise, it’s just a surface level quick-fix kind of strategy.  And those ALWAYS fail in the long run.

This is where an inventory comes in.

There were things in my system that my soul wanted me to  examine and take stock of. And it made sure I did it by demanding my attention through my body!

Laying in bed hour after hour, day after day just left me alone with my thoughts and the intensity of emotion moving through me.

Here’s one of the lessons I received…

One of my top core values is freedom.

What I realized is that everything about what I was experiencing felt the OPPOSITE of freedom.

I felt out of control.
Helpless.
Useless.

I was grasping for freedom during these episodes.

OMG!

Add to that the shame that was staring me down for being a coach who helps women create “Freedom Lifestyle Businesses” … and I was toast!

It’s like my soul said, “Yes, I’ll take another order of the fraud syndrome, please. And let’s have an extra side of shame!”

Here’s what I got around this part of my dark night:

1) I am free only to the degree I am able to accept myself.

I’ve known this. I’ve practiced this. I teach this.

My soul knew there was a level of unconscious (shadow) needing to be cleansed. As it came up and out, I had to feel it to heal it. And healing came through love, understanding and acceptance. Deep acceptance.

(BONUS TIP: No amount of money will help you get this. I can help make more of it. Double it. Break 6-figures. Heck, 7-figures. BUT, what is unique about the way I coach money freedom is this deeper work.)

2) In order to genuinely serve my tribe, I must really understand the nature of what they grapple with.

The level of compassion I have developed surpasses any “marketing trend” and communicates a level of heart and presence that heals.

Again, I’ve known this. I practice it. I teach this. Yet something about this year took me to a whole new level. I am a better leader because of this dark night.

(Now, to be clear to the Universe, I do want to say — that in the future I am open to become a better leader and making improvements WITHOUT such challenging lessons! Hee hee.)

Ok, so that’s my share this round as I reveal more about 2016 and the lessons I’ve had.

Here’s a 2016 END OF YEAR INVENTORY declaration for you….

I AFFIRM: I acknowledge and celebrate the gifts of 2016.  I honor the strengths and the risks I took that facilitated my growth and manifestations. I choose to view my challenges and lessons through a spiritual lens, welcoming the wisdom they have for me as I move forward. I honestly review my incomplete’s and decide to complete them in service to a more alive, rich and prosperous new year. I am grateful. I close this year in gratitude and intentionally embody all that I want to be in 2017.

This affirmation and the inventory are here in…

>>>>  YOUR BEST YEAR YET

In it you will get:

* My “2016 TOP 16 Success Formula”
* A 2016 “End of Year Inventory”
* What you need to do ensure greater prosperity in 2017
  * 3 essentials to get clear on to rock out the new year

In service and humble gratitude…

With all that I am,

Kendra E Thornbury, MA
ps. Get your lessons resolved and move on!
–> GO HERE FOR YOUR BEST YEAR YET

Successful people are successful because they take RESPONSIBILITY for their success!!

They DON’T ….

…blame others for lack of results.
…depend on others to do it for them.
…act like victims.
…wallow in their past.
…hit a repeat button on their story line.
…get hung up in resentments.
…mistake feedback for personal attack.
…’get off’ on drama.

They DO …

…own their realty and the role they play in creating it.
…seek out support.
…take initiative in designing every aspect of life the
way they want it to be–in accordance with their values.
…use the wisdom of their past.
…investigate triggers for deeper understanding.
…stay honest, clear and current with themselves and others.
…remain humbly devoted to their growth.
…’get off ‘on truth.

If you’re success-oriented and are ready for high-level support in 2017, let’s talk.

Let me tell you about it….

I was out for my morning walk yesterday. I was listening to a song with the lyrics, “Let me serve in a wholly holy way.”

I reflected on the nature of this desire.

How will I show up today a bit more kinder?
How will I walk a path of peace?
How will I embody this commitment to serve?

WHOLLY. As in and through my wholeness & the fullness that I am.
HOLY. As in and through the highest sacred act of being.

~*~
I found myself walking by a homeless man. This is a common occurrence in cities like Oakland where I am right now.

I thought to myself — “I don’t like the feeling of just walking by someone clearly in need as if nothing is wrong.”

Really, in my heart I’m just NOT OK with any of our brothers and sisters on this abundant planet being hungry!

And while I can’t personally feed everyone in need, today I wanted to do something different.

I walked by a 2nd homeless man. He was rocking back and forth, sitting on the concrete with a blanket beneath him and a few belongings gathered at his side.

Then the thought came to me, “This could be me!”

A message of how alike we really all are.
A message of humility in recognizing my own helplessness.
A message of treating others how I want to be treated.

I was compelled.

I walked about a mile to a grocery store and got him a sandwich, some fruit, a bag of nuts and a lemonade. I thought he’d be thirsty as well as hungry.

More so, I imagined that a gesture of kindness may be a welcome salve to his soul.

I imagined what I may feel like in such a situation, and sensed a craving to believe that there could be even a small glimmer of possibility that someone, SOMEONE cared. I imagined that I would want to know that I am not just a nobody that people pass by in the busyness of their lives.

I felt my heart swell with compassion.

This could be me.
~*~
I was actually nervous as I approached him.

I didn’t want to come across as condescending.
I didn’t want to startle him or violate his space.
And truth be told, I didn’t want to be exposed to any negativity or anger that I projected he may have.

But I chose love over fear.

I did want to convey my heartfelt care.
I did want to give him food.
I did want to offer him the nourishment of kindness.

I slowly approached and asked him if he wanted food.

He looked up at me with his big brown eyes and nodded yes.
I got closer and kneeled in front of him. I gave him the sandwich and he nodded. I asked if he wanted fruit. He nodded. And then the nuts. He nodded. I asked if he was thirsty. He nodded. I gave him the lemonade.

I paused and looked strongly in his eyes, intending that more than food was passed between us. I said, “Blessings to you.” And walked away.

I cried.
I was totally overcome by the whole exchange.

Part of me wanted to do more.
For him. For all the homeless.
Yet for today. I knew. That is what I gave.
And that is enough.

~*~

This could be me.
This could be you.
This is we.

LISTEN UP CHANGE AGENTS.

I got a rant coming through!

Please be patient with me as I do my best to channel my fierceness in a manner that you’ll be able to hear.

I want to say things like “F**K THIS!” But, I know that beyond the temporary relief of an emotional climax, it doesn’t really say much.

10 years ago I was in Nigeria, Africa. I had a major wake up call as my innocence was stripped down to the naked truth of corruption.

I was MORTIFIED. I stood on the soil of the earth witnessing children in poverty. Swimming in oil invested waters.

HOW COULD THIS BE?!!!

How is it even REAL that we live on a planet with such great resources and immense talent and even ONE of our children is being neglected?

When I returned to America, I was raw. I had been fundamentally changed. I couldn’t un-see what I had been exposed to. I couldn’t un-do the imprint of those children on my heart.

(Picture of me with children in the village of Oporoza.)

Part of me wanted to.
Part of me wanted to pretend it wasn’t there.
Part of me wanted to numb out on potato chips and TV.
Part of me wanted to stay angry and become a full time complainer.

Part of me wanted to justify getting on with my life as usual because I’m “just me” and there really isn’t anything I can do to help. IS there?

Well, I couldn’t shake it. My soul had an earthquake-like shift and it was clear that it was time to get on with a bigger mission.

That’s when I went after building my business. I didn’t know what I was doing. I fell down a lot. I cried a lot. I made mistakes. I flopped some launches. But I STAYED TRUE to my vision to contribute in a meaningful way.

~*~

SO, here’s where my “rant” turns up in volume.

What came to me upon my return to the US… as I prayed and integrated an experience that was now under my skin…is a voice.

A FIRM VOICE. Not punitive. But lovingly authoritative.

It said to me, “Kendra, get over yourself. GET OVER YOURSELF!”

OMG. I knew it was right.

See, I had been putting off building my business for years.

I was scared. I didn’t want to put myself out there. I didn’t want to fail and have to answer to others about how they were right that I was too idealistic to pursue my dreams.

I didn’t want to expose myself to people judging me. Having opinions about me. Even hating me.

I didn’t want to be visible. I didn’t want people to see my flaws. I didn’t want them to attack me if they didn’t like what I said.

I didn’t want to be seen. I didn’t want people to watch me. I didn’t want people to evaluate me.

But I DID WANT TO CHANGE THE WORLD.

That is where I had to get real.

“Preserving myself” was in direct conflict with the value to help others.

~*~

Now, what does this have to do with you? The election results?

If you are a change agent…

You. Need. To. Get. Over. Yourself.

Beyond YOU is a WE.

And we need you.

Get over your self-hood.
Get over your insecurities.
Get over your “I’m not good enough”.
Get over your obsession with being liked.
Get over your care about what people think of you.

And GET ON with the work you are here to do.

You know what’s in our face as a result of this election?

We got some healing to do.
We got some forgiveness to do.
We got some bridge building to do.
We got some growing up to do.

It’s not going to happen by each of us huddling with our habits and slinging righteous hate balls at the “other” in order to preserve our false sense of security.

It’s going to come from being the BRAVE SPIRITUAL WARRIORS & WILD WOMEN who care so deeply that nothing….

… I mean NOTHING … will get in the way of creating a world that is safe, sacred, dignified and flourishing for all!!

End rant.

With all that I am,

Kendra E Thornbury, MA

Rise, women, RISE!

One of the sad things about the media sh*t show of an election season (oh wait, is this a reality TV show?) is that we have LOST the understanding about what today means for our history. The SHADOW of our love/hate power struggle with the phenomenon that IS woman has blinded us from celebrating the evolution that is taking place.

A WOMAN is going to be president. A WOMAN.

Is there corruption in the system? Hell yeah!

Has Hillary become a chameleon — losing the integrity of her authentic leadership — to “play the game”? AH, welcome to the reality of women, folks!! We’ve all created survival mechanisms to lessen the blow of the attacks.

But I will not sit back and remain silent about the pride I feel today. ON THIS DAY. To be a woman.

My great grandmother marched for the vote as a suffragette. She is one of countless women who have made immeasurable sacrifices to be seen, valued and regarded as an EQUAL member of a society who somehow fell into a slumber about the fact that WOMEN GIVE BIRTH TO LIFE AND SHOULD BE TREATED LIKE THE GODDESSES THEY ARE.

Even the fact that we can sit around complaining about this and that is a luxury afforded to us by the hard work of those who have come before us. Dare I say we’ve become spoiled?

Yes, I do. And it’s time to grow up. Grow up from our collective teenage consciousness stunted in the stage of individualism and hatred in order to prove our self hood.

It’s time for WE. It’s time for PEACE. It’s time for LOVE.

So stop spewing your unprocessed fears and shadows on the “opposition”, get on with the WARRIOR work of compassion and forgiveness and RISE UP with the life giving principles that ensure a future for the GOOD OF ALL.

There is BIG energy moving through right now!!

I don’t talk about it much, but one of my gifts  is empathy. I feel things. DEEPLY.

To the degree that I’ve been confused about what is mine and what is anothers. To the degree that I’ve allowed my boundaries to be mucked with. To the degree  that my health has been significantly compromised.

(It’s part of why I’m highly selective about who I work with.)

My journey this year demanded that I re-rehabilitate and re-build.

I had a major BREAKDOWN in January while in Sedona that fritzed out my nervous system. Part of what I’m come to understand is that the amount of information that was coming through me was too much for my current system to handle.

This is one aspect of awakening — a surge of energy that opens your channels beyond what you’ve been aware of. The integration can be bumpy as your old “operating system” is required to set down habits, patterns and addictions that have been foundational to its safety.

I hesitate to talk about these things sometimes. As much as I’m “out there” with my authenticity and my work puts me in front of people, I’m actually a hermit. I sometimes fear that my personal shares come across as self-centered. Also, I am no stranger to the backlash that can come with being different and highly sensitive.

Anyway, I wanted to share that if you are experiencing massive amounts of energy, grief, unrest, confusion, anxiety, anger, fear… or any other various of emotions that fall on the side of “HOLY SH*T, THIS IS HARD!”, I get it and send love.

I do want you to know that on some level, there is a purging happening, and there WILL be new life coming through.