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THE CALL. The soul call. Calling me. To return.

Return to the truth.
 
The truth of who I AM.

I drown out the voices of fear with the sound of the beat.
The heart beat. The life beat.

The truth beat.

No more fighting fear. I don’t have to be against anything.
I don’t have to push and force my way to be triumphant in
the face of fear. I don’t have to hide in the shadows to
ensure you don’t find me.

Fear fades as the vibration of the truth beat gets louder.

The truth beat.

I hear you. I hear you returning.

I know this truth. I am safe here. I am free.

The voices of fear are creeping back in.

Who do you think you are? Tell me, WHO do you think you are?!

I draw from a deep place inside.

I AM!

I AM the fierce face of the Divine Feminine.

A stand for life.
An embodiment of creation.
A protector of the sacred.

I will not be TAUNTED by you. But I am willing to be TAUGHT by you.

What do you have to teach me, fear?!

Teach me to see you for what you are.
Teach me to gain strength in your presence.
Teach me the vulnerabilities you reveal.

I will listen. I will act.

I will do what it takes.

But let me be clear.

This is MY domain. We will PLAY MY RULES.

I will not let you persecute me anymore.
I will not allow you to suck the sweet life out of me.
I will not tolerate your scarcity.

I will not have it.

But I will dance with you.
I will drum with you.
 
I will love you into oblivion.
 
* Get used to my truth, fear. This is MY temple.*

With all that I am,

Kendra E Thornbury, MA

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I am committed to being the best me I can be.

That’s the best I can do.

I will let that be enough today as I feel the pain and suffering that is stirring on the planet.

I woke in tears today. Honestly, fear rushed through me around the ‘state of affairs’.

WHAT CAN I DO?! I want to make it better! For me. For you. For us.

I will practice radical self-care.
I will take responsibility for my reality.
I will be more conscious of my projections.
I will forgive myself and others.
I will continue to deepen my capacity for compassion.
I will love my shadows & parts I would rather not admit I have.
I will challenge the status quo.
I will be accountable for my actions.
I will show up for my mission.
I will grieve.
I will remain devoted to abundance consciousness.
I will stay true to myself.
I will be a stand for more life.
I will make way for new possibilities.
I will deepen my trust.
I will humbly serve those I am designed to serve.
I will get support.
I will be an advocate who elevates life-affirming values.
I will walk the beauty way.
I will help create the new money & wealth consciousness.
I will surrender to Source for higher guidance & strength.

I will be the best me I can be.

This morning I had a timely talk with one of my mentors
of 20+ years, Connor Sauer. It was helpful to gain perspective
on what is going on for us collectively in our evolution.

Why this craziness? I need to know.

It’s part of what we are addressing together in the
seminar Monday, “Into the Soul of the Feminine“.

We are lost without the Feminine.
Our wholeness compromised.
Our success shallow.
Our achievement fleeting.

The good news is that we are waking up. Amidst the sleep walkers and numbing effects of fear propaganda, a deeper current of life force is rising.

I give my trust to life. It knows how to live.

Even when I can’t see it. Even when my sense of security wants proof. Even when my fight/fright/flight response is on high alert screaming “DANGER”.

I give my trust to life.

I will be the best me I can be.

With all that I am,

Kendra E Thornbury, MA

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Sometimes I wish I didn’t care so much.
Then it wouldn’t hurt that my brothers and
sisters on the planet are suffering.

Sometimes I wish I didn’t care so much.
Then I wouldn’t be restlessly consumed by
a sense personal obligation and urgency to help.

Sometimes I wish I didn’t care so much.
Then I wouldn’t feel this deep well of emotion
that tosses me about in its waves of uncertainty.

But I do.
I DO care.

And all I can do right now is cry.

To let my grief be an ally in releasing me from the
pain in my heart. To help me pour out my sadness and
anger so I don’t become toxic with them. To allow my
care to shape me into an even more compassionate, loving
person.

I want it to be enough to contribute to the healing we need.

I believe it will be.
I intend it will be.

I will grieve. It is my responsibility to grieve.

Otherwise, on some level, I’m just adding to the violence.

Sending you love…

With all that I am,

Kendra E Thornbury, MA

Greetings Beautiful!

I raise my glass to you and ALL that you are…

In your glorious radiance.

In your messy mistakes.

In your fiery Feminine.

In your bold Masculine.

In your soft vulnerability.

In your fierce strengths.

In your small self.

In your wild wealth.

CHEERS to your freedom!

Here’s to you being free in all respects and all forms that matter to YOU!

For me, this includes the full range and spectrum of my humanity — from the shadows of my unwanted parts to the wisdom of my emotions.

ANY part of me tucked away, hidden, forgotten, condemned or oppressed is unacceptable to my free spirit.

Not only that, I’ve discovered through the years that freedom is not what we were taught it to be. It’s not in stuff. It’s not in awards. It’s not in money. It’s not in validation.

It’s in YOU. A sweet contentment of the perfection and wholeness that you already are.

That means being at peace with and loving all parts is ESSENTIAL to your freedom.

Any part unloved is keeping you undone.

And you and I both know that if you feel undone or unsettled on any level, you are not truly free.

Women come to me all the time craving more freedom. They think it’s in the business model or getting more clients. Yes, those things will contribute to your freedom, but you can’t build systems or “get more” (clients, money, etc.) by stacking methods on top of an unfree mind. You know what I mean?

As I put together the pieces of my most unexpected undoing of the first 6 months of 2016, one truth that rings clear is that freedom comes from non-reactivity and non-attachment.

See more in the article below... I’m starting to open up more about my intense health crisis. It’s time.

With all that I am,

Kendra E Thornbury, MA

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This is not what I sat down to write.

It’s what wanted to be told…

I’ve long been fiercely motivated by my desire to be free.

Free to authentically express myself.
Free to pursue what is meaningful to me.
Free to choose according to my values and truth.
Free to be an empowered and uninhibited woman.
Free to prosper doing what I love.

Freedom to be… me.

I am grateful for my freedom!

So when I was unexpectedly thrust into a health crisis earlier this year, it was much to my dismay to re-visit feelings I had not experienced to such an intense degree in a LONG time. If ever.

I felt the opposite of free. I felt trapped and helpless.

Suddenly my orientation with the world went from clear and confident to messed up and unsure.

This was NOT my “plan” for 2016!

(Freedom Key #1: Spirit’s plan is bigger than what we have put into motion…. surrender.)

Ok. Fine. So Spirit has a bigger plan for me.

Initially I thought I was simply cleansing. I WAS in Sedona, after all.

But then days turned into weeks. And then weeks turned into months.

My capacity to surrender to what I was facing was severely challenged. In fact, surrendering felt like a threat and put my ego and nervous system into overdrive. I knew on some level that resistance was creating more pain, but I was stuck in a “groove” of old neural pathways that were convinced I was not safe.

(I’ll tell you about that another time. This is a huge unpacking of many layers.)

Laying in bed one day, I heard a voice say…

…I’d come to the end of what I knew.

WTF?

I have never experienced anything like THIS.

I mean, I’ve gone deep in my spiritual path. From vision quests to 20 + years of sweat lodges, to ceremony with shamans in Peru.

But this…

… this had me undone!

I’ve always been “called”. I admit I’ve resisted at times. Leading a life and business that is “Spirit run” is not just the sexy lifestyle dream. (I do have that, too. Just want to take a break from all this intensity for a moment and say YIPPEE to that…)

Anyway. People profess they want to live according to a higher purpose. And bless their hearts. Their intention is good.

But when it comes down to it? It takes a whole lot of humility, courage and getting out of your own way to live that reality.

So, where was I?

Oh yeah. I’m devoted to being led by spirit.

But this time?? I was like WAAAAAIT a minute. This is not what I signed up for….

… or is it?

I feel vulnerable telling you this, yet it needs to be said.

Transparency is important so that you can evaluate if my walk in the world genuinely serves you.

And, selfishly, being honest with you helps me feel free. I can’t stand the feeling of holding back for fear of being rejected or judged.

(Freedom Key #2: Let yourself be SEEN in your deep fears so they don’t keep you chained.)

Also, I know that what I’m going through is part of me serving you and leading women to freedom.

See… from the spiritual lens, here’s what I know about living our purpose:

1) We teach what we most have to learn.
2) Some of our best “material” comes from experiencing the OPPOSITE of what we are helping our clients achieve.
3) There is wisdom in our wounds; and the depth of our ability to hold space for others is tied to them.

Check. Check. And check.

I’ve been through the initiation! And some.

There are a few gems I want to leave you with with before I close. In no particular order:

** Freedom is not the same as control. True freedom has no control. (My ego has been screaming about this.)
** Mind management is a must in your skill set.
** I’ve chanted, “This too shall pass.” more in the last 6 months than all my other years combined. It’s been a life line for me.
** Relationship support is one of the greatest currencies. Invest in them, and you will be wealthy for life.
** There is a rapid acceleration in our awakening right now that is commanding leaders to undo lower vibration patterns. It can feel hard as you detox. Remember you
chose this assignment, you have what it takes, and you
are supported in ways you don’t even know.
** Implement radical self-care to the next level. I mean it.
** A health crisis is a spiritual awakening waiting to be understood. I’m still attempting to understand mine. Prayer helps.
** The Serenity Prayer keeps me sane.

I’m having a FULL CIRCLE moment!

A return to a beginning. And yet the start of something entirely new.

I’m buzzing with energy after having an EXHILARATING conversation with one of my mentors the other morning.
We’re collaborating!

More on that soon… but first, let me tell you a story.

It’s a story of a young woman recovering from low self-esteem, lost in her cultural programming to please others yet hungry to find herself.

It’s a story of young woman waking up to the whispers of something more… idealist in her principles and tenacious in her search for a new way.

YES. That woman is me.

I was 25. I was finishing my BA at Evergreen State College in Olympia, WA. Fascinated with “human performance” and what made people succeed (or not), my studies led me to Experiential Education.

I became a ropes course facilitator. This equipped me with the skills to lead groups through outdoor experiential exercises and obstacles for team and community development.

Little did I know that that was really the GATEWAY for something else.

(Life is like that sometimes. You think you’re preparing for one thing, when really it’s a step to something else.)

One day I was contacted by a group of women who were going to hold a sacred gathering. I thought I was going to lead them through a ropes course.

Instead, I was CRACKED OPEN to a new world. I was synchronistically brought together with a community of women, a path of being and my spiritual mentor.

Those who know me well and clients who have heard me speak have listened to me emotionally declare (at least once) how this way of being – deeply grounded in the Divine Feminine – made me who I am today.

I would not be who I am if it had not been for the impeccable presence and teaching of this woman, Connor Sauer.

(This is a picture of us in Bali in 2011.)

There is so much more to the story. It will continue to be told. It will continue to unfold.

For now I want to celebrate a vision becoming manifest, as well as what it means for more women.

I had dreamed that one day, I’d get to collaborate with her. That one day, our skills and talents would come together in service to women in a bigger way.

One of her teachings is that there’s a responsibility to leadership and to holding medicine. There’s a process that includes a maturation and readiness to be the vehicle for it.

(That’s why some people have such a hard time with manifesting. They just want the “thing”, and don’t tend to the “becoming” needed to be ready for it. Anyway….)

The time had to be right for us to come together in a powerful alliance. That time has arrived.

I can see now how I’ve been preparing for this. Even the intense challenges I’ve faced this year are starting to reveal a new meaning! (Thank God/Goddess!)

And so…

…it is my honor to have her be one of my featured speakers for Wealthy Goddess LIVE 2016!

And to let you women know who are called … that you are in for an epic treat!

OK, LIFE! I’m open and listening in trust.

With all that I am,

Kendra E Thornbury, MA

ps. This is the best time to secure your spot for the event.

The EARLY EARLY Bird Special is the lowest it will be.

pps. Connor is a pioneer, an elder and way shower who carries a rare depth of wisdom. You will love her!

My riches reside in authentic alignment!

I often say wealth includes living in the “sweet spot” of your soul. The place where what feels easy, natural and enjoyable to you meets the longing of those you are designed to receive it.

I just received this picture from the Wealthy Goddess Mastery Retreat in Kauai… and my heart swelled as I gazed into the mirror it provided me. I see the deep satisfaction I’ve worked so many years to achieve.

I see a woman in her skin. In harmony with her purpose. Unapologetic for her presence. I see me.

And I see how the women I serve give ME the gift of this experience! It is their trust, their willingness, their risk, their vulnerability, their bravery that allows me to deliver my purpose. It’s an exchange.

Thank you.

I implore to give yourself PERMISSION to take the next step into your authentic alignment. Let life surprise you with its riches. You deserve it all.

Because a woman longs to be SEEN for who she is, not who you want her to be.

Because a woman deserves to be ADORED as the temple of Divine, not forced into the confines of your comfort zone.

Because a woman is born to be free on HER TERMS, not to be conditioned by fear induced rules that oppress her truth.

Because when a woman is free, the RIPPLE impacts many... nurturing our families, building our communities and elevating the global good.

That is why we do this work. That is why we will persevere.

(Picture taken in the jungle in the heart of Kauai.)

ALOHA from Kauai!  

Can you see that water dripping from my chin?

OMG. We were caught in a major down pour yesterday when getting yummy food for the retreat… we were DRENCHED.

I’ve never experienced anything like it.

(Oh, this is my fabulous friend of 20 years & retreat producer extraordinaire, Tammi.) 

I flew here from California after departing from my grounding nest in Boise, Idaho. It had been 2 months since I traveled, which is a long time for me.

I packed my crystals and my courage as I ventured into a writers retreat in Carmel at the sea, CA.

(Ummm… a new fave place! Here’s a pic from one of my walks.) 

It was a roller coaster for me being in the creative process. I would have hours of feeling restricted by my resistance and stuckness and then… BAM! … a breakthrough would occur.

I love that the writers retreat took place before I lead the Wealthy Goddess Retreat (We start tomorrow)!

I felt humbled in my vulnerability, which is a great reminder for holding space for the brave souls who attend my retreat.

Speaking of holding space, I need to unplug more at the beach….

Read on for inspiration and information to help set you free!

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Wealth from Within… The Ultimate Freedom.

I teach living your wealth from within.

It’s absolutely necessary to your freedom.

Without accessing it, you are dependent on the external to fulfill you.

And that = trouble!

As long as you are dependent on the external, you are trapped.

You think you need something outside of you to fulfill you and make you feel rich and complete.

The problem is, it never arrives. That person behaving the exact way that you believe will give you satisfaction… that bulked up bank account that you are longing to help give you relief.

So… what’s the alternative?

Wealth from within.

Great… But … What IS the within?

The within is the domain where your true self resides, your inner most sacred being that is authentically you.

It is your center, your connection to your soul.  Your essence.

As you re-discover your soul terrain within, you will naturally create a business, a life and a relationship with money to match.

Eventually, your without reflects your truest self, resulting in the ultimate richness & freedom you desire.

3 Benefits of Wealth from Within

1) Peace

No person, circumstance, or amount of money can bring you
peace. Only you can create peace for yourself, and you will find
it within.

“Each one has to find peace from within. And peace, to be real,
must be unaffected by outside circumstances.” ~Gandhi

2) Guidance

Within is where your innate wisdom and intuition reside.

Both are key to providing you the guidance you need to choose
& design a business and a livelihood that you feel wealthy in.

Not only that, when you recognize and use the wealth of information
that exists inside, you know greater productivity and ease. You
constantly live in the “sweet spot” of your soul.

3) Richness

As you align with the essence of who you are, you can’t help but
feel rich!

You recognize that nothing is missing. Nothing is wrong. Nothing is lacking.

You no longer have to prove yourself, fight for anything, acquire more or
receive validation.

You are complete in the fullness of all that you are.

“The bounty lies within ourselves.”  ~Carina Chatlani

GREETINGS from Boise, Idaho!  

I’ve had an unexpected extended stay here.

What I’m noticing…

…I’m coming into myself in a new way.

Some things that mattered to me don’t anymore.

What will I make of my life?

It can only be that which nourishes my highest self.

Thank you to these hills and creek for helping me know!

I’ve written an article for you exposing the not-so-pretty side of awakening.

May it bring you insight and comfort as you continue your journey of becoming.

READ ON!

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Awakening to new heights, new awareness and greater truths of who you are is dominantly presented as such a glamorous affair.

But that’s an incomplete representation that can lead you down a slippery slop of denial, judgment, and self-hatred.

The truth is… it’s not all sunshine and rainbows!

Without an understanding of what really goes on with ALL aspects of the process, you can believe that something is wrong with you. That you are losing it.
Or even that you are going crazy.

As a leader, I feel a responsibility to be real with you.

I am graced with a lifestyle that you get to see with pictures of me care-free on the beach in Kauai, epic shots of me in the grandiose mountains of Peru…living the dream.

Yet I also navigate the same emotions, fears and messiness you likely encounter.

My recent health crisis has brought me to my knees.

I’m honestly still piecing it together, teasing out the wisdom and re-building.

True to my form, I have chosen to inquire about the purpose it has for me… and for you. I can’t stay mired in my story too long. My soul seeks greater purpose.

I can see that the the physical symptoms are part of a larger awakening that is occurring.

And because you are likely going through or will go through something similar, I want to help.

I want to talk about the parts of the growth process that feel hard, awkward, disorienting, unsettling and down right terrifying.

I don’t want you to make the mistake of misinterpreting these symptoms — thinking something is wrong with you or that you are going “backwards”.

I want you to understand that these unsettling and disorienting experiences are a natural part of the expansion. And, that by resisting them, it only gets worse.

My advice is to be fierce in your self-compassion, get impeccable support and surrender in trust.

A theme is that- whatever the symptoms- they are forces you cannot ignore so that you slow down, simplify, and re-examine who you are and what your life means to you.

The ultimate intention is your freedom, and your awakening is a discovery into your true self.

Here are some of the symptoms I’ve experienced.

1) Sudden waves of emotion.

Oh yeah, baby. Plenty of tissue has been at hand!  I’ve been feeling it. A lot of tears.

Emotions are our allies. Even though you can believe the opposite in the moment.

Your emotional intelligence can process things your mind just can’t comprehend. Emotions cleanse and release. They also point you toward what is most vital for your growth.

Energy needs to move! Otherwise we become pent up, clogged up, resentful, hardened and heavy. Emotions help keep us light.

2) Old “stuff” coming up. Body memories, suppressed emotions, archaic patterns.

It’s time to clean house in way you never have before. For me, this has included an activation of energies and patterns in my system that didn’t have a safe outlet earlier in my life. My body held so much for me, and it’s not willing to anymore. Not only that, the vibration and habits of suppressed and archaic patterns just don’t line up with who you and I are becoming.

I know this can be disconcerting. If you’re like me, you’ve done TONS of healing and personal growth and might feel frustrated that this old “stuff” is surfacing again.

The good news is that you don’t have to figure it out. You don’t have to even go through the memories again. Just let your body release for you. I’ve spent hours on my back laying on the ground or earth, simply allowing in humbleness.

3) Hypersensitivity. Amplification of the senses.

I’ve always been a sensitive person, but holy wow!

With the opening of new channels comes greater subtle awarenesses. Sounds, scents, exposure to news, food.

Boundaries and impeccable self-care is the remedy here. Don’t worry about being too much. You can’t compromise yourself in ways you used to. Your soul won’t let it.

I’m a basket case if I don’t stay on this.

4) A restless desire to break free from restrictive patterns, life-draining and consuming lifestyles, and toxic people or situations.

I’m not talking about your usual “nudge” for change that gives you time to reflect on your plan and casually decide a date in the future to implement.

I’m talking an impatient urgency. I’m talking a sense that if you don’t make these changes now, you will be in danger and/or your life will be majorly compromised.

5) A feeling that you are somehow different.

I’ve always felt a bit on the outside. You feel me?

The rebels, the way showers, the feelers… we tend to feel like the odd balls and weirdos growing up.

But this shift is bringing forth a whole new quality of feeling different. I actually feel altered sometimes.

I feel a disquieting sense that everything about my life is new and altered. I’ve left who I was behind and am completely re-orienting.

It’s an “in-between” place.

6) Deep sadness about the suffering in the world.

This is one of the reasons I’ve had the sudden and intense waves of emotions. My heart is opening and my compassion is deepening … it’s part of being more awake. And I care for our planet, our children and for you. Sometimes, I get overwhelmed
by the heartache and suffering.

Part of me wants to curl up in a ball of denial, but what I’m choosing is to allow the process to soften me and to gain greater inner strength to serve.

7) Intolerance for superficiality.

OMG. I. JUST. CANNOT. WILL. NOT. PUT. UP. WITH.
PERSONA. FAKE. PRETENDING. SURFACE. BS. IN. ME.
OR. OTHERS. PERIOD. IT’S. AN. INSULT. TO. MY. SOUL.

Well, so there you have it. The not so pretty side of awakening.

Again, my advice is to be fierce in your self-compassion, get impeccable support and surrender in trust.

Stock up on tissue, get comfortable with punching pillows or squirming around on the floor like a snake, be vulnerable in asking for help and keep breathing.

You’ve got this!

(Pssst. We get into the not-so-pretty side of money next week in Seminar #2 of Medicine of Money. These parts we deny become shadows. Shadows are one of the biggest money and wealth leaks. If you want to discover more, come play!) 

Sometimes LACK is just a sign you are not playing BIG enough!

When you perceive there’s not enough… money, time, love, energy…. you go into scarcity consciousness and contract.

You shrink back, hoard and tighten up in stress.

So you ask for less. You take what is “good enough to just get by“.

But that’s the OPPOSITE of what will help you rise above it! Abundance consciousness is attempting to show you, through the mirror of your results, that you are just not going BIG enough!

It’s a sign. And you can interpret as…

“Oh, I’m just thinking too small and can see
how creation is simply nudging me to a grander
version of myself and my dreams! Thank you.
Let me call forth my powers to venture into
a more abundant vision.”

“Just enough” thinking will get you “just enough” results!

Ask for more. Expect more. Demand more.

If you want top notch guidance to get you there, let’s play.

The Medicine of Money starts Monday, May 2!

With all that I am,

Kendra E Thornbury, MA

ps. You were made for MUCH more than “good enough”!