EXPANSION & CONTRACTION !!!

I made some big decisions this week.

I got real with myself.

I admitted dreams + achievements that I want.  One’s that I’ve kept tucked away.

The kind that I’ve thought were WAY too massive to go after.

I might fail.
I might not have what it takes.
I might humiliate myself.
I might be selfish in the grandness of my wanting.

F@%k it.
 
Life’s too short.

There are more RULES TO BREAK.

And MUCH satisfaction to gain in unleashing my next souls quest for fulfillment.

And tonight. I’m dragging. I’m grumpy.

I know it’s resistance. I’m going to let it be what it is.

I’ve been around the growth block.

Expansion. Contraction. Expansion. Contraction.

Nothing is wrong. I keep reminding myself of this as a part of me obsesses about getting back to the “high” places.

I’m low. I’m grouchy. I’m sluggish.

I went beyond my UPPER LIMIT as I cast my desires into the future.

I hired NEW TEAM. (Weeee!)

I firmly planted the seed of intention (Instead of secretly wishing).

I know what happens when I decide.

Sh$T gets real because I’m a tenacious freedom-loving-live-it-like-my-soul-calls it kind of gal!!

So that means. A course has been set in motion.

Some of it will be planned. Some of it will require surrender.

It scares me. It thrills me.

Part of me wants to pretend I don’t want this. But I know the dissatisfaction and despair that results from ignoring my inner prompts.

It’s time.

Are you in this kind of space?

The place where remaining as it has been just doesn’t cut it anymore?

Not because where you are is bad.  In fact, it may be good. My life is good!

It’s more about the swell of life force that’s come to an awareness that absolutely must be expressed. It prevents you from turning back.

There’s no turning back for me. I can’t pretend. I won’t pretend.

So the resistance is having its hay day, wanting to pull me back.

“Stay the same. Stay where you are. Don’t move beyond this comfort of the familiar.”

Yep. Nope.

With all that I am,

Kendra E Thornbury, MA