My Black Out, Your Wake Up Call! (VERY Personal)

Posted by | August 8, 2013 | Uncategorized | One Comment

I BLACKED OUT. IMG_3889

This is really personal.

I had a black out the other night.

What does it mean?
Why did it happen?
What is Spirit telling me?
What wants to emerge that I was not
hearing or honoring?

In my experience, I traveled
another dimension of consciousness.

I was in a “void”.

After a bit, I heard a really quiet voice
that seemed far away, “Kendra!”.

I could feel the urgency.

And then I heard another voice,
“Listen to her voice!”

Then what seemed like a distant call
came through an echoey chamber into
the present reality.

“Kendra!” “Kendra!”

My eyes slowly fluttered open.

I realized I had “left” for a time.

Sweaty and speechless, all I could
focus on was the simple act of breath.

Breath in. Breath out.

The next hour and a half was a spiritual
discipline. It took ALL my concentration
to stay present.

A chant came that I was taught in Peru macchu-picchu.jpg
while blasting through a terror barrier
climbing Waynu Picchu (the peak you
see behind Machu Picchu). ===>

“Warrior Woman, Warrior Woman
Come to me.
Warrior Woman, Warrior Woman
Come to me.

I need your wisdom for this age.
I need your wisdom for this age.”

It was a saving grace.

ANOTHER WAKE UP CALL?

I am approaching this as I have approached my life
since I had a HUGE wake up call in my early 20’s…

With spiritual inquiry, deliberate choice
and deep abiding trust.

In my “Meet Kendra” page on my website, I share
one of the defining moments of my life.

As I revealed,

“…just prior to this time I was confused, lost and depressed.
I was making decisions based on what I thought others wanted
of me. My sense of direction and future was nowhere near
what my heart and soul wanted, and I was terrified to step into
what that was.”

I came to believe the seizures were the Universe literally
shaking me out of a reality that was sucking my Soul dead.

Now, I don’t think that the incident the other night
was as big of a wake up call. It might not be one at all.

I am no where near that depressed, lost and scared young
woman I once was.

I am happy.
I am prosperous.
I do work I love.
I live my dream life.

However, I have been going through
major up-leveling this year.

I’ve been stretched and called out big time.

My business is consistently growing by leaps.
(For example… I’ve hired a new Business Manager.
And…  I’m going to lead a new event in November!)

Part of me just wants to hide. It’s getting a bit
“hot in here” as far as my ego is concerned!

So… while this black out the other night does
not feel like a big wake up call, it sure keeps
me alert and awake to what matters.

Honestly, as I lay there in that hour & a half
staying present to each moment with great
diligence, I DID feel the urgency!

Don’t hide out, Kendra.
Engage the next level of your purpose, Kendra.
Stay true to who you are as you lead the way, Kendra.

HOW MY BLACKOUT CAN HELP YOU.

In addition to re-prioritizing my time to tend to
my health (I canceled my trip to Atlanta) and
to be strong for my retreat in 2 weeks in Sedona

I’ve been meditating on how what took place
could serve you.

This is what came through.

Read on to learn more about Wake Up Calls.

Better yet, do what it takes to wake up
and BE the person you are here to be.  

This is it.
Now is the time.

WHAT IS A WAKE UP CALL?

A wake up call is a nudge (or scream!) from
your soul to come out of your slumber.

You need an adjustment, a shift or even a radical change- wake-up-call
you’ve been hanging out in comfort-zone-ville for too long-
and it’s time to make it happen!

A wake up call is FOR you. It’s one of the many ways the Universe
supports you in getting into right Divine Alignment with who you are,
your birthright to abundance and your soul’s purpose.

Since we are all so programmed to live OUT of alignment, your
soul comes up with “techniques” to help you wake up.

It’s a mirror to get you to see something you have
been dismissing or in denial about.

It’s a command to come out about who you really are
and what you are here for.

It’s a reality check as to how your current life is out of sync
with your purpose and greater meaning.

It’s a turning point, a defining moment.

See, you weren’t meant for mediocrity. You weren’t designed for struggle!

And your soul knows this. You are destined for Divine Abundance.

But like so many, you picked up limited beliefs that took you
away from who you really are and you adapted to social norms
to keep you “safe”.

The problem, from the soul’s perspective, is that you are not
programmed for safety.

You are programmed for aliveness, for joy, for prosperity,
for purpose, for contribution, for fulfillment!!

A wake up call helps you remember this.

WHY DO I NEED A WAKE UP CALL?

Most people go about their life with a certain level of
denial or numbness.

In an effort to manage and tolerate the less than satisfactory
elements of life, denial and numbing out are common techniques
to help sooth our aching souls.

At first, it may work for you.

Yet eventually, the growing desire of your soul just bursts forth.

Now, because this is a friendly Universe, you do get to make
adjustments willingly. Through ease and grace, a prompting and
gentle nudge is all that is required to change up the game.

In fact, you are given cues and synchronicity along the way
to help you wake up and stay awake. It doesn’t have to hurt.

The problem is, most of you are still ignoring the signs.

Your fear is running the show and creates all kinds of excuses
and scenario’s to keep you in what it perceives as “security”.

Then what?

  • You hold back.
  • You hit your income ceiling.
  • You stay in work that is not fully the sweet spot of joy.
  • You don’t write your book.
  • You contort yourself to be someone you’re not so you are liked.
  • You tell yourself “someday” you will get to your dreams (which never comes).
  • You allow a certain level of discontent to be normal.
  • You adjust to the belief that scarcity is real.

On some level, you are restless. Things are not quite
what they could be. A longing tells you there’s more.

HOW CAN I AVOID A WAKE UP CALL?

Wake up calls can be gentle.

But they can also be harsh, traumatic and so urgent, you can’t ignore them.

And that’s the point.

Your soul does not want you to ignore who you are any longer.

So, if you don’t want to feel the jarring impact of a dramatic wake up call?

Stay true to your self.
Don’t hang out too long in your comfort zone.
Make tolerating – of any kind – unacceptable.

Listen to the inner, higher presence that guides you
to what is alive.

THE PATH OF LEAST RESISTANCE.

Some believe wake up calls are an essential part
of our spiritual growth and evolution.

I agree, yet I assert that life no longer needs to be hard
or a struggle.

Learning, growing and evolving does not have to come
through pain. I believe that’s an old paradigm and energy
no longer serving us.

Wake up calls are great assistants in designing a life
and business of meaning and fulfillment– based on
who you really are and what matters to you.

But, you don’t NEED them in order to build the extraordinary
and prosperous life that naturally comes from authentic alignment.

Choose to be awake so that you don’t eventually find
yourself in a dire and/or scary situation that necessitates
it.

With this comes a deep contentment and freedom.
The kind that if you don’t choose for yourself, your soul
will orchestrate ways to help you choose it.

One Comment

  • Stella Togo says:

    Hey Kendra,

    Great writing! Thank you for sharing it with us. I wasn’t able to attend this D7 and feeling a little out of sorts because of it..other commitments. Are you available to talk?

    Hugs,
    Stella

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